Many people describe that feeling of vague nervousness as having butterflies in their stomach. Well, if that's the case, they were having a party or something yesterday, because as we drove the windy roads, I was kind of quiet, a bit edgy, and short with my mom, too... oops. See, I hate this thing. Can we just put that out there? It's kind of / sort of / maybe awful. And I was really hoping that I'd be able to just wear it at night, starting after this appointment. Long story short, my hopes were up too high.
So, once I got back to the car, I'll be honest... I cried a bit. I cried out my disappointment, and then choked up on every phone call I made to my loving family, who'd been waiting for the details on this appointment (they hate the brace as much as I do). But then, you take a deep breath, and you have to move on. What else is there to do? So, we drove to Steak and Shake, ordered dinner and the biggest diet vanilla Cokes on their menu, and I tried to forget about that miserable piece of plastic that, for me, represents more frustration, annoyance, embarrassment, and pain than most people realize. And you know what? It worked. Turns out sipping that enormous diet vanilla Coke while chatting with your Mom and watching a random video of a baby laughing it's sweet little head off on our iPad can make you feel better. And so do a trip to Fresh Market and Borders before spending an hour and a half with friends that love me like crazy, and that I love more than they'll ever know.
|don't you love taking a picture of yourself taking a picture? strangely fun. anyway...|
At the end of the day, I looked back and sighed at my mess-ups, my flops, and my mini-failures... I wish I had not been so worried or wrapped up in what was going to happen. Not my job. It's His. I wish I hadn't wasted energy on what I didn't even know. I wish I'd been more courageous. But then I came across this today.
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow." ~Mary Anne Radmacher
Don't waste your hardship. Don't waste your pain. Turn it around, and do something astounding with it... because you can.SHARE THIS POST